Thinking-just random thoughts--

Here I sit, and I am thinking, I don't really much like blogspot too well. I want to be able to categorize what I write. Blogspot isn't allowing me to do that. Angelfire, and all the other webpages are no longer what they used to be. Sometimes, technology doesn't always improve--it deproves. heh.

September has been a pretty good month. It jus sorta flew by for me. I blinked and it was aready the 26th of September. I enjoy days like today when nothing pressing is going on, but then I think, well I couldve went to Ardmore and waht not--but I am too tired from going going going all week, that all I want to do is stay home.

I didnt' even make it to the paint and body shops lke i intended to. Instead, I slept till noon, for the second time in a long time, I got my toes painted, and I watched tv, and blogged, and cooked dinner---and now trying to soak my sonswhite football uniform--without using bleach--as not to ruin the collar colors. Im not sure thats possible to get them white without bleach.

I have so much on my mind its like I can't put my thoughts into one place. I am so tired, and I know that my thryoid is contributing to that, for because I am not on my medication, like I should be. I take it, and all I can want to do is sleep. I accomplish nothing. I accomplish more--without it.

Yet, I know that its not doing my heart good, I know its not doing my tumor good and my other nodules, for the meication would be shrinking them. Its been a year, since they were prescribed---and I still have not take them. Its also been over a year that they told me the thyroid REALLY needs to come out, due to the tumor compressing my airway, which is compressing my esophagus. And yet, I've done nothing still. Hence, I get tired, tired and more tired.

I honestly have no clue how I continue to function. But I do..One day, it'll be fixed. I hope.